18th December 2006...
I was wakened earlier than expected this morning... 1.00am... ~yawn~ I initially thought that I was dreaming when I heard the phone ringing.... I tried to settle back down to sleep when I heard the mobile bleeping... although I had dreamt that the house phone had been ringing.. the bleeps of the mobile woke me up properly... I had a missed call... it was my daughter.. I tried to phone her back several times.. but there was no answer.. it took me ages to get back to sleep.... I was wakened again at 7.05am... yes it was my daughter again... the new baby wasn't settling.. she had been up all night crying.... I think the wee one had a touch of colic.... she is okay now.... and hopefully myself and my daughter will get a better sleep tonight....
I went to my son's concert today.. all the kids were fantastic... they had all worked hard... even the wee ones from the nursery class did there thing... god bless them.... it isn't long to xmas now... and I'm still not organized.... but I will get there....
19th December 2006...
Today was an eventful one... I never seemed to stop all day.... the lady that comes to help me arrived at 11.30am.. when she arrived I had to ask her to take me to the rent office... I had to get my rent rebate sorted out... well all the appropriate information has been handed in... so now I play the waiting game... until they manage to sort things out... the joys... ehhhh!!!!!
Got a phone call from my daughter whilst I was trying to sort the rent out... she was looking for my mums mobile number... she was planning to take the new baby up to my mums.. as my mum had yet to see her.... she phoned me back.. and told me that she had managed to get a hold of her gran... and she would be arriving at her house around 11.30am... then once my mum left to go to work... she was coming to my house for a while.. I got the house tidied... then sat down for half an hour... then went to the school to pick up my son...
Once I collected him from school... we had to got to the local shop... Santa was there... I had promised him the day before... aarrgghh!!! silly me... more walking.. no worries... he got there... he got his present from Santa and headed home... by the time we got there my daughter was outside the house waiting in the car...
It was nice to see my daughter and the kids... they stayed for an hour.. then they had to start driving home... after they left... I had to get my son ready for his Tae Kwon Do class... I left mine around 5.15pm... as the class started at 5.30pm... that gave me plenty of time to get there... I dropped him of and came back home for a cup of tea with my friend... as her son also goes to Tae Kwon Do... well is a break away from the kids for an hour... a well deserved one at that!!! haha!!!
By 6.00pm... I was beginning to get really tired... but I still had to go and pick my son back up... oh well!!! needs must... so I put my coat back on... and went to pick him up... we got back in around 6.45pm...
Yes today... has been hectic... but for once... well in a few day's anyway... I had a "feeling ill" free day.... yippee!!!!!
20th December 2006...
Hey... guess what??? I have found a cure for a sore throat... earache... the cold... a headache... and feeling sick!!!
I'M A GENIUS!!!!
Well I must be... haha!! I took my son to school this morning.... and on the way home... I started to feel sick... I tried to hurry home... as I didn't want to be sick outside... my legs were like jelly... I felt dreadful... by the time I got home... I had a headache.. a sore throat.. and earache... all thrown in for good measure... aaarrgghh!!! not again... I had plans for today... but seemingly my body had other plans.... I made myself a cup of tea... but I knew that I had to sit down.. I was frozen... I wrapped the throw.. that I have on my couch over me... and started to sip at my tea... no can do... my throat was to sore even to drink a cup of tea.. so I had to leave it sitting... an hour or so later I started to get a cold... was on the phone to Colin.. and sniffed most of the way through the conversation... I honestly felt dreadful... I tried to get a sleep for a while.. thinking that would make me feel better... but no can do... my body was aching... even lying on the couch... I was really peeved of....
SO... TODAY TURNED OUT TO BE A COUCH DAY!!!!
Or so I thought????
An hour or so later... I was cured... it must have been the bottle of Lucozade that I had drunk earlier.... Well.. that's my story and I'm sticking to it.... haha!!
To be honest.. I was just so glad that I was feeling better...
I had an appointment with the O.T... from social work today.. the appointment was at my house... just as well ehhhh!!! or I would have had to cancel... she arrived at 2.00pm... with one of her colleagues... we discussed what areas within the house I seemed to have difficulties in... I explained briefly... but my main problem is the stairs... we had previously discussed the fitment of a shower... which would also make things easier... but ideally... it should be installed downstairs... to be 100% beneficial... but with the layout of my house... seemingly this is impossible... as the en-suite is to small... and they will not even entertain the suggestion of taking the false wall down... and making the en-suite bigger... so.. basically I'm back to square one... she told me.. that there was no point.. in installing a shower upstairs... as it was expensive... and unless I could spend a certain period of time upstairs... long enough to use it... then they would not fit it at all... so what am I supposed to do now???
They are going to contact my O.T at the rehabilitation centre.... to help me.. get over what they call "anxiety attacks" on the stairs... and they want to check.. that I'm able to take a shower... unaided... once these steps.. have been accomplished... and they get a report back from the rehabilitation centre... they are going to install an overhead shower... her final comments.. before she left was... "well now you have something to work towards"
WHATEVER!!! ... SPRINGS TO MIND!!!
The only realistic thing that would help me... is to get better... it,s about time... instead of the N.H.S funding... non helpful suggestions... text book theories... and graded exercise programs.. for C.F.S suffers... and concentrated on the problem first hand...
THIS IS A REAL ILLNESS... WHICH TO DATE... HAS CHANGED MILLIONS OF PEOPLE LIVES... FOR THE WORSE...
Maybe one day.. . they will recognise it... and find a cure for it...
But I will not hold my breath waiting!!!!
21st December 2006...
Today... I had another hospital appointment.. this one was with the O.T at the rehabilitation centre... we basically just covered what had been discussed the previous day... with the O.T from social work... as in the shower... and the so called "anxiety attacks" when I'm upstairs... but I have now decided to at least meet them half way.... my next meeting with the O.T is within my home... step by step... we are going to see if this problem can be eliminated from my life... fingers and toes crossed ehhhh!!!
Well... today I realised that I wasn't a genius... and my bottle of Lucozade didn't cure me after all... ~sniff~ I've spent most of the day... feeling sick again... eventually I had to go to the chemist... I bought a bottle of Peptal Bismol... it seemed to work wonders... well for a while anyway... along with a couple of paracetamol...
The wonderful symptoms of C.F.S... who needs them...
Hey... just had a thought!!!
Well... seeing as C.F.S seems to mimic... other illnesses... maybe one day... it'll manifest itself.. . to making us feel as if we have had a few beers... haha!!! hey, just think... wouldn't we be the lucky ones... and it wouldn't even cost us a penny... yippee!!!!
22nd December 2006...
~Phew~ I'm so glad that today is nearly finished... it has been hectic... to say the least...
One of my dog's had been sick... on my sofa last night... thank god... it has removable covers... I had to take them all of... to wash them... done now... but didn't I have great fun.. trying to get them back on... I had dried them over the radiators... but when I took the covers of the radiators this morning.. the ones that had bee hung over the living room radiators.. were still wet... my initial thought.. was that the radiators.. in the living room weren't working... I phoned the housing office to report it... the chap came out from the gas board around 11.00am... the long and short of the problem.. that the radiators had been closed... ooppss... no wonder they weren't working.... haha!! the chaps that laid the laminate flooring must have closed the valve... without me knowing...
I had to spend some time.. upstairs.. as well today... ~gulp~ no worries... I did it in baby steps.... haha!!! firstly... I had to get my son's clothes ready.... as he was going away with his dad for the weekend... that was a nightmare... I had to iron a couple of things... before I packed them... so I put a towel on the top landing... and plugged in the iron.... honestly... I felt like I was dying... I was sweating big time... my head was hurting.. and I was shaking... but I had to get it done... I kept coming back downstairs... taking a break... then going back again... by the time... the woman that comes.. to help me... arrived... I wasn't good... she asked me if I was okay... of course I was... well that was my answer anyway... but when I looked in the mirror.. I looked dreadful... ooppss.... no worries... I'll be fine... shortly... it will pass... and yes it did...
There has been to much going on at the same time today... what with the women in... the gas man in... the phone ringing.... my head.. felt like it was going to burst... aarrgghh!!! I had just managed to clear my head... then the doorbell went again... it was my sons dad.. he had come to pick up my sons clothes.. before picking him up from school...
Well.. tomorrow... I think I'll move house... change my phone number... and sell all of my dogs.. and the cockatiel as well.... just think... a day... of peace and quiet... bliss!!!!
If only.. ehhhh!!!!!
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