15th January 2007...

There are still no interest in the above vacancy... oh well... to be honest I can't really blame anyone for not applying... I'm afraid that I'm going to be stuck in this situation for a while yet... no worries... what's another 4 years of putting up with all the crap that I have to on a day to day basis...

I made a a wager with my friend Colin last night... we have £20 up for grabs... I just know... that... bearing in mind the doctor said that I had a kidney infection... and an infection running through my blood stream... that my urine test will come back negative... and I never had a kidney infection to start with... well put it this way... I will be very surprised if my illness this time is real... but I will tell you something... I'm just so sick and tired of the full situation... I have lost out on 2 weeks in my life... and yes... today I was feeling not too bad... until the occupational health woman came in... 40 minutes into the conversation... my head was buzzing... I couldn't take anymore... and yes... you could see it in my face that I wasn't too great again... no worries... that was soon remedied... I slept for half an hour on the couch...

Colin took me to the school today to pick up my son... I'm still not feeling comfortable when I'm out... I walked from the car park, to the door in the school... waited for 5 minutes for my son... and I felt awful... my legs were like jelly... and I felt sick... by the time I returned home... my head felt like cotton wool... a  major attack of feeling of unreality... I've felt like a spaceman all week... even when trying to walk about the house... at least I had a few hours break from that feeling... it lifted for a while...