19th February 2007
The wee one still isn't to well... I had to sleep with him last night... and I had to keep him off school today, as in tomorrow... it will be doubtful if he will make school either... but I will wait and see, he has a "Burns Poetry" competition tomorrow afternoon... and he is desperate to attend...
I was up most of the night... got up this morning at 8.15am... the wee one seemed a bit brighter first thing this morning... but as for the rest of the day.. well that has been debatable... but hey... he will get better soon... I have made him promise to look after his mum if she catches his tummy bug... and he has promised to do so... wee sausage... I love him to bits... but I have to admit... this full scenario has exhausted me... at the moment I'm not doing to good... I was fine this morning... a bit tired... yes, but when I went to lift the kettle my arm was so painful that I was struggling... I felt that someone had literally battered me up and down the house with a baseball bat... ~ouch~ lol... apart from all that... I seemed okay I phoned my friend Nancy... had a blether... then started to feel myself going downhill...
Yipp you guessed... the rest of the day has went from bad to worse... I have been struggling most of the day... everything I have tried to do has been an expedition... I had to go to the shops earlier... needs must, I had run out of cigarettes... I was like an old woman... the only thing that was missing was a Zimmer frame... I was completely out of breath... trying to get home... half an hour later I developed an extremely sore throat... I got to the stage when I just couldn't get of the couch... I was overwhelmed with exhaustion... I slept for an hour... no choice really... but since wakening... I feel completely out of breath... and I have developed a cough... I ache from head to toe... no worries though I will be fine tomorrow... as per usual... well that is my story and I'm sticking to it!!
21st February 2007...
My couch kept me a prisoner last night.. and most of today also... and to be honest, I have only just risen from it... I've managed to escape... haha!! well for a short while anyway... last night... was terrible, to be honest between 5.30pm and 9.00pm... I seemed to suffer every symptom from A-Z connected with C.F.S... this morning.. well what can I say, I have felt dreadful all day... but on a positive nature... I had to go to the doctors today... no choice really... I have had trouble trying to get a breath.. periodically for 2 days.. well I think that I have got to the bottom of it now... another chest infection.. AGAIN!!! ooppss.. or is it that a fact, that I'm just depressed... I seem to get the symptoms of various things.. only to find out.. that it wasn't real to start with... no worries... I was given antibiotics... and I'm now the proud owner of an inhaler... in a week or so.. bearing in mind.. the doctor suspects that asthma is involved... I have to see the nurse.. and get my lung capacity checked.. that'll be fun..
As a whole.. today has been dreadful.. my brain has been playing mind games all day... to the stage that I have been unable to function... I felt like I was going crazy... I need to escape... it was getting to the stage that I couldn't deal with it anymore... yes... I get peeved of suffering the symptoms of C.F.S.. but to be honest... I find the mental part the hardest to deal with.... especially when you find the "brain fog" element.. overwhelming... but what else can you do... fight it??? you had better believe it.. and I always will...
I had 2 choices tonight...
Firstly... I could have remained on the couch, suffering the symptoms of C.F.S.. (like I did last night)
OR
Secondly... have a couple of beers to try and mask the symptoms of C.F.S... I just can't deal with it anymore...
GUESS WHAT CHOICE I MADE???
22nd February 2007...
Well another eventful day... haha!!! I got up this morning... an felt fine.. "I'm cured.".. lol.. to be honest I lasted until 9.00am.. then I was feeling very unwell... I spent most of the day... on the couch... again... I just felt so lethargic, my body ached from head to toe... and I was still having breathing difficulties.... but I realised that as long as I didn't move... my breathing would be fine.. and it was...
I went for a sleep around 1.30pm... I was so tired that I couldn't concentrate on anything... I just needed to close my eyes... I think that I slept for around half an hour.... then after I woke.. it was time to combat the walk to the shop... ~gulp~
But hey... I managed.. yippee!!! I got there got my groceries... then started to try and get back home... but on the way back home... I was struggling... big time!!! I was struggling to get a breath.. and only god knows how I made it back home... but hey... I got there regardless... ~phew~ As soon as I got home... I took my inhaler... noticed that Colin had tried to phone... so I phoned him back.... seconds later... I had come out in a cold sweat... and my breathing was erratic.... I was breathing so quickly.. that I felt as if I was going to pass out... I had to sit on the kitchen floor.... I was buggered... I was struggling to string a sentence together.. was shaking so badly that I couldn't lift my cup of tea.. that seemed to take me ten years to make previously... I had tried to put the milk in twice... and a tea bag in three times.. and as in.. had I added the sweeteners... who cares... I was in a mess... but ten minutes later... I managed to get a sip of my tea.... yippee!!
At the moment... I'm fine... again!!!! 2 cans of beer and I am cured....
SSsshhhh ~secret~ I have actually had 3 cans tonight... xx
25th February 2007...
Well.. hey.. I am back... I think, the last couple of days have been horrendous... yesterday... especially... mostly my fault though..
Tell you what.. I think that I need to update you tomorrow.. my head has stopped working...
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