11th June 2007...
Today has been pretty hectic... and my healthwise all has been well... I have managed to catch up with friends via the telephone today... it was nice to catch up...
Today I had an appointment within my home... with the income maximiser from the social work department... she basically is trying to sort out what benefits I am due... to date... she has been a gem...
I had been discussing Tesco's proposed plans... to bring me in to the store... and give me a formal dismissal... then according to them... sign the paperwork... to kick start my pension... to be honest... the advice that I have been given... is to phone the store manager... and clarify exactly what the formal dismission entails... if it is... how it sounds... I have been advised to contact A.C.A.S.... and discuss my current situation... and through them... I will find out every legality of the situation... (as personally speaking... I know for a fact that they are backing me into a corner)
But what I know for a fact is... the government does not extend S.S.P. for a period of 28 weeks... for another company to dismiss there ruling... and to get rid of the employee at the 26 weeks period.... it isn't right... and it is not fair... I will continue to dig my heels in... as the law is on my side... and their actions at the moment... only portray convenience... to themselves... after all... all I am now... is a statistic... creating too much paperwork... for the company...
Well I have only one thing to say to that is
TUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12th June 2007...
Today has been pretty hectic... I phoned the Disability Rights Commission and A.C.A.S. this morning... hoping to get some answers to my employment problems... yes, they gave me great advice... but as the day went on I found that I was banging my head of a brick wall so to speak...
I got a letter from Tesco earlier... and after a short telephone conversation with the personnel manager... she was insistant that we tie up all the loose ends... I told her that I was busy on the day that she had arranged... well they have to give me more than 24 hours... don't you think... after all respect and courtesy costs nothing....
My brother in law drove me to the D.H.S.S. to discuss the fact that Tesco, one minute... were saying that I was due S.S.P. until the 23/06/07... then in the same breath... were trying to get rid of me tomorrow... I was advised that if this was the case... that they had to fill in another SSP1 form... giving reasons why they will not pay me up until the 28 week deadline...
After leaving the D.H.S.S. I got a lift to Tesco's... I went to speak to the personnel manager uninvited... and presented her with the information that I had been given... again... she presented me with a reluctance to provide the necessary information... but I was adamant... eventually she told me that she would fill in another SSP1 form... to provide the information required... only one problem though... she didn't have one... again I need to do her job for her... as I said that I had a blank one at home... and I would bring it in... and to think that I'm being pensioned off.. as seemingly I can't do any type of work... to be honest it's her that should be being pensioned off... due to her inability to do the job that she is being paid for!!!!
And here I was thinking... that after tomorrow... things will be done and dusted... only to receive the information later on... that it is not actually convenient to dismiss me on Wednesday after all... I now have to wait till Thursday!!!
On my way out of Tesco... I spoke briefly to the union rep... I told her.. that I would be glad to see the back of Tesco... I just want out!!! I have had enough... no-one does anything to help... period!!!!
To be honest, yes... I have had enough... I am losing and have lost my temper with all concerned... at the end of the day... what can they do about it??? SACK ME???
To be honest... I am passed caring... I have thrown the towel in and all I want now is peace...
13th June 2007...
Well today is my last day of being employed... and tomorrow will be the end of an era... of fighting against financial preservation... I have lost this battle... big time!!!!
I have been sat here for at least ten minutes... and I just can't find the words to tell you how I feel... at the moment my head is empty, my life is empty and most importantly... my future is empty...
As if it is not bad enough that C.F.S. has stolen my health... but why come back and take my hope... my dreams... and my future... it just isn't fair...
14th June 2007...
Tonight I am happy... I have fought the system of ignorance... and I won... I will not roll over and die as expected... yes, perhaps I am at the moment public enemy no1 for causing implications in the case scenario of dismissing me from my work place.... but my actions today have given me financial stability for at least 9 more days... yeeha!!! and on top of that my self esteem is still complete... well until the 23/06/07... I will agree the date of termination of my contract of employment... not be forced to accept a date... I know what I must do... but I will do it when the time is right... regardless...
Yes, I stuck up for what was right today... and if I did not... who would??? no-one... well there you go...
To be honest... yes, I am ill... but not stupid... amidst the periods of brain fog... there is an intelligent person yearning to break free... and momentarily I do... creating a path of destruction to those that have tried to underestimate my power of knowledge...
As of today... yes, I have fought a battle... and all I can say is that I have won, hands down... yeeha!!!!!!
Well until the next time....
17th June 2007
At the moment I'm waiting to become a mum... again... lol my wee dog is due to have a litter of puppies... to be honest I thought that she may have had them on Friday night... but it was a false labour.. at the moment she is fine... but hey.. I will keep you posted....
I was helping a mate out earlier with an application form... he is applying for a job in "supporting the community" and had sent me an e-mail on the question of his understanding in being people-centered.. I sent him my understanding on the question involved... as in..
my understanding of person-centered is to approach the said individual in a therapeutic manner as each said individual has within himself/herself has the capability to understand that only they themselves can only promote this lifestyle change and then reach there full potential in life. This should be approached in an empathic and non-judgmental way.. providing only guidance to the individual. In the instance that this has reached a physcological depth then cognitive behaviour therapy may be of assistance to assist the client with a new directive rather than acceptance of the learned psychological habits/patterns that they have adapted..
What really pisses me of is the fact that I went to college... attained my N.C in Social Care level 3... and from that perceived an acknowledgment of what would be expected from myself... if and when I took up a position of care in the community... unfortunately... I am at the needing care end of that factor... and yes, I question the factor of why pass such a course when what learned knowledge and understanding that you have been enforced with is not distributed amicably...
Text book knowledge will never be applied... instead it is the ignorance of the said individual which will adhere to there position of care... within the community... well lets face it.. how many of us have read the bible??? and does that make you a better person???
Me thinks not... after all salvation and self preservation comes from within....
NOT FROM A BOOK!!!!!
The concept of kindness, understanding, self help, spiritualism and care are all found within... and only those that have been gifted with these skills of life will be able to help and care for others...
Lets face it...to apply such skills... is to have them inbuilt... which then makes us the better person....
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