2nd January 2008...
A belated Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year to all...
In reality these wishes would have been implemented sooner.. if it was not for the factor of living with CFS/ME..
To date... I am still working.. but things are starting too take their toll...
3rd January 2008
Got a phone call earlier from my mum only to be told that the Daily Mail were hounding her and my dad for a story of his pioneering surgery to give him a better quality of life since contracting Parkinson's Disease.
To be honest,, regardless of the operation... my dad still has problems...and the operation itself has only given him a window of hope.... and tries to take advantage of this fresh air... but to be honest the window itself is predominantly in charge.. after all how many times have you left the window ajar only to find that minutes later.. it has closed??
My family as a whole refuse to give other sufferers hope.. as this operation is only a stop gap.
After all how long is a piece of string???
I rest my case....
But regardless....for the time being... my dad is back.... and no longer will I see him suffer and dependant on pills to allow him to be mobile....
We all need a break at some point... and I am so glad that someone that I love has been reinstated with the gift of well-being , far from normality... but hey a quality of life regardless...
But to be honest... this new found quality of life still delivers problems... but different ones... we as CFS/ME sufferers can understand this... as we have to pace on a daily basis... or try to....lol my dad has now got to learn to do the same... he is now aiming for the stars.. and getting stuck at the horizon..
Another familiar case of the mind is willing but the body is not....that case factor we can understand entirely....
My dad's story can be read in full in our local newspaper...
The
Kilmarnock Standard...
4th January 2008...
Within realm of darkness
awareness of the future is
first and foremost..
As within the fable of life
We are destined to encounter
Our destiny in life...
Regardless of this concept
Whether it is deemed acceptable...
Our destiny has been perceived
By an invisible proclaimant
and we are left wishing that it was pre-complained
But once upon reality
This pre-conceived destiny
Can be denied...
But on dismissing this factor
We become deemed to the change
in our life's...
What will we now become subject to?
Deep within our hearts we wish for a life
Of positivity...
Whereas our hopes and dreams will become one
No longer will they remain in the realm of
Darkness...
As denial is submerging towards the light
Leaving negativity behind
Now the invisible proclaimant is
incomplete
As i am now in control of my pre-claimed
Destiny
Within this factor I am whole
And my inner demons will be no more.
With regards to the above... the invisible proclaimant had no right to deem me to an in factual lifestyle.. such as being a recipient of CFS/ME , but regardless of my loss... I will fight to regain my title within life.... which is one of completion....
Within this factor.. my inner hopes and dreams have became one....
Other Diary Entries
Week Beginning
2008
September:
29th, 22nd, 15th, 8th, 1st
August:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
July:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th
June:
30th, 23rd, 16th, 9th, 2nd
May:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
April:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th
March:
31st, 24th, 17th, 10th, 3rd
February:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
January:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th2007
December:
31st, 24th, 17th, 10th, 3rd
November:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
October:
29th, 22nd, 15th, 8th, 1st
September:
24th, 17th, 10th, 3rd
August:
27th, 20th, 13th, 6th
July:
30th, 23rd, 16th, 9th, 2nd
June:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
May:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th
April:
30th, 23rd, 2nd
March:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
February:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
January:
29th, 22nd, 15th, 8th, 1st2006
December:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
November:
27th, 20th, 13th, 6th
October:
30th, 23rd
