5th February 2008...
Today the significance of quality and quantity became apparent..... but for a while... this equation haunted me.... and I responded to the latter with irritation.....
I have realised that any intervention from others within my lifestyle has to be paced accordingly...
I am unable to address this scenario as a whole... instead, like every aspect of my life... it has to be broken into "easy bite pieces" so to speak....
Within this factor.... I will be able to digest it easier.... and enjoy the factor of companionship.... rather than the concept of the mere symptoms of C.F.S/M.E taking away what little realism that I have left....
Today... I have tried to recuperate from the aftermath of expectation....
But this I will always question.... why should such an illness... create such a barbaric approach to life???
The so called factor of barbarism not only creates a level of constituency for us as sufferers.... but to others... it forms a scenario of rejection.... ignorance and labels....
Never judge a book by it's cover... as if you do, on the outside, we as sufferers make a pretty cover... binded well and presentable.... as our illness is invisible....
Please take a moment or to open the book to understanding.... read... then try to understand.... then if you make heed of this unfortunate scenario.... please take a moment to explain... as I within myself also struggle to reach such a realm...
For now... I will seek refuge in my old and trusted friend "darkness" as the vision of normality which was planted in my brain still remains...
Within this factor alone... I will always fight to regain this case scenario.... and will dismiss any substitutes.... such as a sheer existence...
After all it is not my vision that is impaired.... it is that of others....
Perhaps one day.... the factor of realisation will occur...
After all... As an individual I am on exhibit to those who care to give a second glance... but sadly many just pass by.... never to question my exhibit...
But still I remain... a prisoner within "My Glass Cage"
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2008
September:
29th, 22nd, 15th, 8th, 1st
August:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
July:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th
June:
30th, 23rd, 16th, 9th, 2nd
May:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
April:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th
March:
31st, 24th, 17th, 10th, 3rd
February:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
January:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th2007
December:
31st, 24th, 17th, 10th, 3rd
November:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
October:
29th, 22nd, 15th, 8th, 1st
September:
24th, 17th, 10th, 3rd
August:
27th, 20th, 13th, 6th
July:
30th, 23rd, 16th, 9th, 2nd
June:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
May:
28th, 21st, 14th, 7th
April:
30th, 23rd, 2nd
March:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
February:
26th, 19th, 12th, 5th
January:
29th, 22nd, 15th, 8th, 1st2006
December:
25th, 18th, 11th, 4th
November:
27th, 20th, 13th, 6th
October:
30th, 23rd
